Monday, February 13, 2017

What is Happiness?

Dear Family and Friends,

The days march on and here it is, the start of another week! I hope you all had a great week, mine was pretty good. There were a lot of little things to be grateful for. I've been working on being more social, and as such have been doing more with my YSA ward. I really do have some pretty sweet people around me, and I'm glad I finally am getting to know them! (Being social for me can sometimes be a real challenge, so this has been quite an accomplishment.)

As I was reading 1 Nephi 17 I came across a verse that really struck me. Part of why it really stood out is that I remembered it standing out to me while I was on my mission, going through some similar experiences and feelings. Griping and complaining on to Nephi, his brother says in verse 21, " Behold, these many years we have suffered in the wilderness, which time we might have enjoyed our possessions and the land of our inheritance; yea, and we might have been happy." After 8 years of being in the wilderness his brothers were still lamenting over having left Jerusalem rather than seeing the miracles and joy that they had experienced. They were so focused on what they were missing out on in Jerusalem they couldn't accept that what lay before them in the promised land could be more happiness and joy than they would have ever had in Jerusalem.

Sometimes my own personal "Jerusalem" calls to me, telling me of what I am missing out on, and how happy I could have been if I hadn't had to leave. But I know I need to keep my eyes focused forward and truly believe the Lords promises to bless me with something better. One of Satan's greatest tactics is to tell a truth, but in a way that isn't all the way true. Nephi's brother's statement that if they had stayed they would have been happy might have been true, but it cleverly hides the reality that happiness can be found in many different places. Sometimes happiness comes in a different flavor than we were expecting because life and plans change, but that doesn't make it any less real or valuable. The real question is how do we choose to see it? What is happiness to us? The Lord loves us and does things for our ultimate good, today's wilderness may lead to tomorrow's promised land with sweeping vistas and majestic mountains to feel our soul with joy! May we all keep walking on through the hard days, seek the little bits of sunshine that are there, and know that the Lord's promises include happiness!

Katelyn

Saturday, February 4, 2017

"Frankly"

Dear Family and Friends,
It's been a good and busy week! I was blessed to see the Hand of God in my life in many small ways. I feel like I ran into, and was able to visit with many friends I hadn't talked to in months. I was also blessed to be able to hear Elder and Sister Bednar speak as well as Sister Kristen Oaks. I feel like the Lord was really trying to reach out to me and assure me that he really does have my best interest in mind. Sometimes with my limited understanding and sight it's hard to trust things really are for the best, particularly when they cause a lot of anxiety and sadness. Later on down the road I know I'm going to look back on this time and really value what it taught me and how it helped me to grow, but right now I'm just grateful for the little bits of God's hand I see in my life to help me to keep walking when I just want to stop fighting. I'm winning the battle, but the slow pace of healing combined with how much effort it takes, can be discouraging. I am grateful for my Family and Friends and particularly my Heavenly Parents and Savior who love me "Frankly". 

My thoughts were turned to the word "Frankly" this week when I read in 1 Nephi 7:20-21, "20 And it came to pass that they were sorrowful, because of their wickedness, insomuch that they did bow down before me, and did plead with me that I would forgive them of the thing that they had done against me. 21 And it came to pass that I did frankly forgive them all that they had done, ...". It really impressed me how Nephi used the word frankly to describe the way in which he forgave his brothers. I looked up the work Frankly in the Oxford English Dictionary to reaffirm it meant what I thought it did, and to be able to see if it had a different meaning at the time the Book of Mormon was written. The definitions have stayed relatively unchanged since it's first use in the 1600s, here are the three I liked best in connection with this verse. 1. Freely; unrestrictedly, without restraint or constraint. 2. In a liberal spirit, generously; unconditionally, unreservedly. 3. Without concealment, disguise, or reserve; avowedly, openly, plainly. Looking at these definitions made me really admire Nephi even more. To have come away from a moment where is brothers are trying to kill him and forgive them "without restraint, unconditionatlly, plainly" really shows how Christ like we need to be! If Nephi can forgive his brother frankly, then I want to be like Nephi and ultimately Christ, who forgives all of us Frankly. Sometimes it's hard to not want to hold forgiveness and love back until the other person "deserves" it. But in reality waiting to forgive or love someone is wasted time, and is not after the example of the Savior. I want to do a better job of doing things more Frankly, particularly when it comes to loving, caring, and forgiving the people I am blessed to have in my life! 

Love to you All!
Katelyn

Monday, January 30, 2017

Into not Out of Righteousness

Dear Family and Friends,

Another week marches along in this experience called life. This week was better than last week as it was yet another beautiful reminder of how much God loves me. I am continually amazed by the love I feel around me, particularly from my wonderful family.

This week I have continued to read about the family of Lehi as they journeyed into the wilderness. In 1 Nephi 2:9 Lehi names the river they come to Laman and says to Laman, "O that thou mightest be like unto this river, continually running into the fountain of all righteousness!" The word that really stuck out to me in this was into. When I've heard or read this line before and I've pictured the river, I always though the imagery to be one of the fountain of righteousness feeding the river that is "Laman." Looking now I see I was backwards, so I began to ponder why the river is running into the fountain of all righteousness and not out of. I believe it be illustrating how faithfulness is an active action, not a passive result. When we are faithful our example shows the light of Christ. We are in essence "feeding" the fountain of righteousness that is around us. We are not meant to just receive from the fountain, but to live in it and thus feed it. The things we do have an outward effect on our own life and on the lives of those around us. My hope is that we can all be a little better at not just taking from the fountain of righteousness, but do things to add to it!

Love to you All!

Katie/Katelyn

Monday, January 23, 2017

Power unto Deliverance

Dear Family and Friends,


Tender Mercies have become really important to me as of late, and maybe it's in part because of a new connection I found in the scripture related to them. In 1 Nephi 1:20 Nephi states, "but behold, I Nephi, will show unto you that the tender mercies of the Lord are over all those whom he hath chosen, because of their faith, to make them mighty even unto the power of deliverance." At this moment in my life what I learned that Tender Mercies are a manifestation of the Love of God in our life. A bit of an additional witness of the grace and atonement that is at work in our lives. Tender Mercies are over us and they will make us mighty even unto deliverance. Some days are so difficult that I want to hid away from the world and my responsibilities, but it's those Tender Mercies that give me enough strength to get up and go out the door. They carry me for just long enough to see another Tender Mercy and take another step forward. One step, one tender mercy, one day, one life, and one Savior to make everything possible. Life can be incredibly difficult, particularly when you get hit by multiple overwhelming things at once. But I am really coming to believe the words of Nephi, that Tender Mercies make us mighty even unto the power of deliverance.

This week has had a lot of up and downs, more than most weeks usually do. There have been times where I'll I've wanted to do was cry, and moments of amazement at the Tender Mercies of God. One really special Mercy came at the end of probably my hardest day. I was talking to my mom about how I really wanted orange juice, but I didn't want to go out in the snow to get some. I heard my roommate and her boyfriend come in so I went out to talk to them and ask if I could practice taking their vial signs for my nursing homework. They agreed to be "victims", so when I came back with my blood pressure cuff my roommate was getting orange juice from the fridge and asked if I wanted any. It was such a small thing but it felt so big to me that she would offer me the very thing not 10 minutes before I had been wishing for. God really does know and love us. He is aware of me individually, and every person individually. He is helping us, just look around and see the tender mercies in your life!

Love,
Katie

Monday, January 16, 2017

Equal and Opposite Opposition

Dear Family and Friends,

I'm back! (Well in a fashion). For my religion class this semester at BYU we get to make a post each week about something we have learned from the scriptures or in class. Since I've already got this wonderful blog I decided to continue to use it. I hope you enjoy hearing from me again and that I can say something that will help others also come closer to God!

This week in my religion class we were studying Moses 1 from the Pearl of Great price. In verses 19-20 Satan comes to Moses and becomes angry when Moses refuses to worship him. He becomes so angry that Moses sees the "bitterness of Hell". My professor shared a quote from Brigham Young, "God never bestows upon His people, or upon an individual, superior blessings without a severe trial to prove them, to prove that individual, or that people, to see whether they will keep their covenants with Him, and keep in remembrance what He has shown them. Then the greater the vision, the greater the display of the power of the enemy." It had never really occurred to me how great blessings/revelation often are juxtaposed with trail/temptation either before or after. It doesn’t change that sometimes those trials and temptations can be almost overwhelming, but it will help me to remember the reality of the blessing and revelation I receive. No matter how hard and challenging life is, or how tempting it would be to just give up and not try, we MUST continue on. One day and one step at a time!

This thought was pretty meaningful to me because of the challenges related to changes in my own life. Adjusting to being "single" again and starting BYU's nursing program being large parts of those challenges. There has been a lot of up and down in the last month. However, it's a new year and so it's time to start again and believe in better days to come! I've been home a year and a half this month. The scary thing about that is that I feel like the past 18 months went a lot faster than the 18 months I spent in Kansas. Just like the 18 months on my mission I have grown a lot and become a better person. In many ways I feel like I've maintained the rapid growth rate I picked up on my mission. Sometimes that is exhausting, but I wouldn't change it for anything! I'm excited about the new opportunities before me, including the one to update this blog with the things I am learning. 

Love to you All,

Katie/Katelyn/Sister Blood

Monday, November 2, 2015

The Final Days in Kansas

Dear Family and Friends,                                                                  August 3, 2015

Well this is really weird to be writing a final weekly email. It's really surreal and kind of bittersweet. Being in Kansas has been one of the best experiences of my entire life and I'm so grateful to my heavenly father for blessing me with the opportunity to have been a missionary here in the Kansas Wichita mission. With this final week I've been doing a lot of reflecting upon what I've learned over the last 18 months and things that have changed, so this will probably be a long email, which is good.  One of the things I've learned over the last couple months is who I am. I've come to really recognize that I am a daughter of God and the power and authority and strength that comes from that. On a more normal level I've also come to learn that I am a crazy spastic dork who makes a really weird sound effects. I've learned that I have an ability to reach out and love others deeply, and to teach powerfully by the Spirit.  I've been giving a gift to be able to really build bonds and friendships with people, that I know will last for many years and possibly eternity.  During last 18 months I've also learned the importance of diligence.  To this point and don't think I ever really learned to really dedicate myself wholeheartedly for a cause until now. Example of that was a few days ago the sisters in the Bel Aire Ward needed someone to be able to play the accompaniment for song they wanted to do for the baptism.  I looked at the piece and I said it wasn't too hard and so I decided to give a whack at it, after five or so hours of practicing (since I was nauseous most of that day and the next day I could spend it practicing ) , I was able to play it during the baptism. I know I was helped by heaven because normally I cannot learn a piece that fast, I didn't play it perfectly, but it was sufficient. It was really neat to play a see how if I really had a goal and determination I can do hard things through diligence and not giving up.  In this mission I've also learned the importance of communication.  I've learned how the written word if done right can have the power to testify, but if done hastily can leave confusion and misunderstandings. I know that the only way to be able to truly testify of something that you know, is from the heart by the Spirit for if we do not have the spirit cannot be carried into one's heart.  I've also come to truly know that my Savior lives! I know that he knows my name and he loves me. I know that I could not have made it through this mission, all 18 months of it, without the enabling power of the atonement. The missionary work and the things I was asked to do Are beyond my own ability, but because it was something I needed to do and it was in the Lords will he's strengthened me to be able to do something that was far beyond my ability. When times were hard and I felt overwhelmingly discouraged and alone I turned to him in prayer and I came to feel my saviors arms wrapped around me, and I knew that I was not alone in this trial, and that it would not last forever.  This last 18 months are much like hiking up a large mountain. I know that eventually I will reach the  top of the mountain, but I  felt like I would never actually get here. Now here I stand looking out at the crazy amazing view that comes from having serve the Lord with all my heart might mind and strength for 18 months. I looked back at the hills of climbed and I see trials and tribulations I had to go through much like large boulders and rivers and mud holes. I know the Savior walked every step of it with me and I know that I needed to do it because I needed to reach this point, and needed to be able to see how much greater potential I have for myself now that I never saw before.  I now know in a way that I never knew before that this is not the end, but this is simply the beginning to the rest of my life and in turn, the rest of eternity. I know that for the rest of my life I will be a representative of Jesus Christ and I will bear his name in spirit. I will have the ability to reach out to others and to be able to help them feel the love of the Savior through my outstretched hands, and I know that every day I have is to become more like the Savior; to repent and use the
atonement. I will never reach perfection this life, but  with the Savior's help I will be able to reach a point here that will help me we continue progressing in the time after this life.  Words cannot express the depth of love I have for Kansas. I love it here with all my heart, this has come to feel like home.  The people here especially in this last ward that I've served feel like family and it breaks my heart a little bit to know that I will have to leave them. Yesterday as I bore my testimony and began to cry. That was one of the hardest things I've had to do,  but also one of the greatest things to be able testify what I have learned to those I love so much. After I sat down I Continue to cry, out of sadness of the fact that I have to leave this place I love, but also a little bit of joy knowing that I would be reunited in this life again with my family here on this earth. This is not the end of the story, but merely another chapter that is a  beginning.  If you ever wonder if the things you do are enough know that they are!  Know that with the Savior's help we can do all things, and that no there is nothing that is beyond our reach. He has much higher visions and goals for us than we see for our self.  that with his help our minds and our vision can be expanded and we can reach higher amounts and higher abilities that we would've ever dreamed.  I know the gospel of Jesus Christ has been restored to the earth. I know with all my heart and being that Joseph Smith was and is a prophet of the Lord. I know that Thomas S Monson and the 12 apostles are called as representatives of Christ in this day, and they speak Gods words to us today. I know that families can be together forever. And I know that the Lord blesses us with challenging experiences that test and refine us and allow us to grow.

I love you all so much and I will see you soon. Weird.
Sister BLOOD 




Sunset on the Waterfront

Monday, July 27, 2015

Interfaith Choir Concert

Dear family and Friends,                            7-27-15

This week was super cool. On Friday we had a really neat interfaith
choir concert at our church. We invited some choirs from other churches
to come in and present some songs and we had a choirs.  We also had
some people from the Mormon Tabernacle choir here as well which is
really cool. Ended up being a huge success and great first first year, 
we plan to do it annually. The group that really helped us get it
going called the Jesus prayer project said, "it was a huge answer to
their prayers to be invited to something like this."
Huge part of miracle is that the founder of it and her mother and
friend came to church the next day and ended up staying for the entire
block. Even though they are really active in their church they really
liked the service and we're very grateful that they were invited. We
had some super awesome lessons with them during the day. Top off the
fact that we actually taught Relief Society. Funny part about teaching
Relief Society was that we were asked to teach on the talk by Sister
Burton, " We'll Ascend Together" which if you don't remember is all
about eternal marriage. Everyone thought that was pretty funny that
two single non dating missionaries were giving a lesson on eternal
marriage.
It was a really successful  and we had quite a few people come up
afterwards and thank us for the outstanding lesson that we gave. And
then the friend that came told her her friend (who is the founder
prayer project ) that she was amazed that we were single and able to
present such an outstanding lesson on marriage. That is a true
testament to the power of the spirit being able to teach through us
even if we do Not have personal experience  on something related to
the Gospel.
This week has been a really good week and in someways very hard
recognizing how close the end is. Our ward mission leader told the
ward council I was going homes on August 6th, and many of them did not know so
they asked me if it was my last week. I'm glad I still have time left
that I do and I plan to make it the very best that I possibly can. And
that I was able to keep it quite how close to the end I was and not
stand out like crazy how close going back to Utah is.  I love Kansas!
Funny thing about Kansas,  even if you're up at 6:30 in the morning,
outside it's super humid which means that you feel sticky the second
you get outside even if it's not that hot yet, it's pretty gross. The
reason we were up so early this morning was we went and had to speed
walk 2 miles to an investigators home, where we met the Elders and then we
surprise mowed and cleaned up her front yard. We are super excited to
see how she reacts to i,t we hope she likes it. Moral of the story
service is awesome, but humidity in Kansas is not fun. At least for
all of those who've been experiencing 100° in Utah you don't have 60
to 80% humidity every day so be grateful for that.

Love you all!
Sister Blood :)