Of Stubbornness and Faith

Dear Family and Friends,

At the end of the week looking back I am glad for where I now stand. That said I most definatly would not want to go through this week again. I think it would have been a lot better if I hadn't had such a pessimistic attitude about it before it even started, but that it just another thing I learned from the week. Sometimes I don't realize how stubborn I am being until it feels like I run into my own stubbornness like it were a brick wall. I know I must have been carried through this week and yet another turning point by the savior, but I think it's still so recent I don't entirely realized exactly how much he really did carry me. I am much like a small child being carried through with my arms tight around his neck and my eyes scrunched tight because what surrounds me feels like it will overpower me and destroy me. Yet here I stand, a little better, and a little safer, because of the care and love of my Savior. I know more than anything else right now I really have no idea how much I am being carried because it's all I can do to hang on at moments.

My insight and parallel to my life this week again comes from the story of Lehi and Nephi. 1 Nephi 18:4  "And it came to pass that after I had finished the ship, according to the word of the Lord, my brethren beheld that it was good, and that the workmanship thereof was exceedingly fine; wherefore, they did humble themselves again before the Lord." The thing that I noted from this verse was the fact that Nephi's brother's didn't humble themselves before God until AFTER the ship was finished, and they saw that it was good. I realized that in my own life I've been doing that a little bit. I can see God is guiding me to build a boat to take me to better places. Yet even though I can see it, I haven't entirely wanted to break my pride down, be humble, and accept God really does know what he is doing and that it is "Good". I know I am not the only one that has done this in times of great trial. My hope is that we can all learn to be a little better at being humble and accepting the Good in God's plan as he teaches us how to build "boats", or bridges, or anything that helps us get to a very different place. I hope we can accept his wisdom sooner in the process rather than waiting until the boat is done to see that God really does know what he is doing! 

I hope you all have a wonderful week, and I'll talk to you again soon!
Katelyn