Waiting

Dear Family and Friends,

This week had some of the best days I've experienced in a while. Sometimes healing is so slow we don't really appreciate how far we have come. Sometimes part of healing includes having really good days; but it's okay to also have days where we feel a little blue and worn out from trying so hard. I also don't think we realize how much on both the good and hard days we are carried by the Savior.

My studies yet again found me connecting to Lehi and his family. After years of travel Lehi and his family finally received the promised land to live in. In this new land Lehi shares, "And behold, it is wisdom that this land should be kept as yet from the knowledge of other nations; for behold, many nations would overrun the land, that there would be no place for an inheritance." (2 Nephi 1:8) For me this reminded me of the wisdom of the Lord showing us things in his time and way. He really does have wonderful things in store for us, but sometimes we don't get to know how amazing they are until we get there. I felt like this particularly applies to dating and marriage. We date someone, learn to care, and then feel sad when it ends, wondering a little bit if they really saw how much of a wonderful person you really were. What I realized is maybe they don't truly see us for our full potential and the whole person we really are because they aren't meant to see. The person we do marry will be someone who does see us for who we are more than any other on this earth. 
Part of being on this mortal journey is not knowing why, or what lies at the end of each road. Sometimes we, or others that love us, may receive impressions of what might be down a path, but ultimately only God know. Sometimes God holds things back to test our patience; but I have come to realize that sometimes God doesn't show us things because he is keeping them pure and whole until it is time for them to be received. I believe the law of Chastity falls into this category as well. We are commanded to wait until marriage to be sexually intimate, in part because that special unity allows spouses to see and know their companion in a whole and complete way that no others see or know them. To connect both body and soul on the most intimate and profound level. It is Gods wisdom that leads to the command to wait to share that connection until with marriage, so that "the land is not overrun." We may feel some days we will be waiting forever, but when the time comes and God's will shows us what was prepared for us, all of us will find ourselves humbled and grateful we did indeed wait for the Lords time. 

Katelyn